The Tension Between Faith and Humanity: A Morning Struggle

This morning, as I lay in bed, a conflicting desire arose within me. I longed to hit the snooze button, to escape the responsibilities of the day, and indulge in a brief reprieve. Yet, my inner clock, driven by discipline or necessity, refused to let me linger. This internal struggle revealed a deeper tension between my faith and humanity.

As a my own provider, I feel the burden of responsibility towards my clients. The pressure to perform, to deliver, and to sustain myself financially can be overwhelming. In moments of weakness, I find myself wishing for a temporary escape, a chance to disappear from the world’s demands. However, reality swiftly reminds me that such luxuries are unavailable, and I must press on.

In these moments of desperation, I cling to my faith. I remind myself that “The Same Spirit of God that raised Jesus from the dead lives in me” (Romans 8:11). This truth should be enough to propel me forward, to trust that God is working everything for my good (Romans 8:28). Yet, as a human, I struggle to see beyond my immediate circumstances.

My worldly eyes, influenced by fatigue and frustration, often obscure the bigger picture. I see only the obstacles, the challenges, and the exhaustion. In these moments, I cry out to God, asking for His sight, mind, and ears. I acknowledge that, left to my own devices, I would falter.

“God, grant me Your perspective, that I may see beyond the mundane and the difficult. Give me Your mind, that I may think with faith and hope. And grant me Your ears, that I may hear Your whispers of encouragement and guidance.”

This morning’s struggle serves as a poignant reminder of the ongoing tension between my faith and humanity. While my flesh may weaken, my spirit must remain resilient, anchored in the promises of God. As I navigate the demands of my daily life, I will continue to seek God’s sight, mind, and ears, trusting that He will carry me through even the most challenging days.

— MC©️

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